sickness. auditions (for which 2 people showed and we cajoled one of the crew folks to read.) whispering — everyone whispering back, whether mocking or in sympathy, i don’t know. a dietcoke to ward off headaches; a vitamin c droplet; ross saying my illness was ruining his weekend. it sure frightened rob yesterday. he came over to watch a movie but kept looking around nervously at my room as if he could see all the gleefully plotting germs; he bolted. renee, who always seems friendly but a little ill at ease w/ me tho i don’t know why, jess and her boyfriend, ben ross and i watched high fidelity. ben laughed a lot but afterwards asked me what i get from it. lots of housecleaning/upkeep to be done. ross wants a dinner party tonite despite the fact that he’s illin’ too. joel disappeared. waking up to jazz and ben. lentil soup. ross telling me it’s all about positive thinking. trying to convince himself, maybe. ben taking out our garbage, doing our dishes. we need more women of color to try for this piece. apparently they’re intimidated (?) i guess it is scary. so far khadijah and i have been agreeing — vision for each of the characters, etc. meeting tomorrow. she seems to respect my opinion.
it’s cold outside. how did it get to be this cold? i won’t have warm weather again for a long time ….