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adventures in yoga

show up (first time in 6 months)

smile through fear

smile at superfriendly superpositive teacher

fear superfriendly superpositive teacher

begin: oh jesus: muscles feel napalmed

sweat so much you’re scared the superfriendly superpositive teacher will think you’re crying

muscles … burning …

ouch! arm. ouch. superfriendly superpositive teacher puts her hand on your back and says kindly, “i know that sometimes I get hurt when I try to get out of positions too quickly.”

lie in the darkness and try not to hate superfriendly superpositive teacher. and all superfriendly superpositive people in the world who are good at yoga and dance and not crying and probably sex, childbirth, motherhood, and death with dignity too.

walk home in the rain and say to self, “see? that wasn’t that bad, now, was it?”